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so i got the line at work that i wanted, i also hit my hours for a raise and now i get benefits and that thing called a pension if i make my hours. yay!

i'm hoping now i can have some more free time to hang out with people, and blog. i still think on night shift i should bring in my laptop and type everything out in word then go publish it in the morning when i get home.

also in news i ding'd my world of warcraft toon up to lvl 68 yup i'm pretending i'm going to be a big girl now. it's only taken me forever and a day plus 2. and a lot of help from bosman lancey pants and the gso and kimi and a few others. but i'll make it to 80 eventually! who'da thunk i'd be playing WoW lol.

i don't know why but i'm so bipolar when it comes to christmas. i love the tree, i love the lights(but not the stupid led ones that give me twitchy eyes), but i hate the idea of it, i hate HAVING to buy people gifts by a certain time, and i hate waiting to see what i got and i hate christmas shopping. I don't mind some of the music. But i just hate being forced into it all and i prolly have a bit of bitterness with the whole idea that i don't get to see my mini munchkin open presents. i know that's selfish but it comes up a lot. i see her lots through the year, and honestly if i had the opportunity to see her on christmas morning i might pass it up as it would be too raw and painful. christmas, her birthday, her family day and mothers day are all days that while most of the time i'm ok, other years it hurts. don't get me wrong though, i'm so happy with my life now and with how things turned out and what direction they are going in. i'm so grateful for everything, but that doesn't mean i don't have moments where i slip into the what would it be like pauses. they only last a moment but a moment is enough. maybe i'm a grinch for not LOVING christmas but i promise i'll smile through it and do so sincerely at the parts i enjoy and i won't steal it from you. ;)

and while i may not be counting down till xmas (btw don't worry i will send my xmas cards around valentines day as per usual, sent them on time a few years back and freaked everyone out, so no worries folks) but i am counting down to screeching weasel!!! Dal and i are going and i couldn't be more excited *swoon*