My Birthday roxorz

I had a super great birthday and got to spend it with those who love me and care so much about me. I got birthday wishes from everyone and it meant so much to me. I'll be having a red deer get together too hopefully those who couldn't make it to calgary can make it to that one but if not i know you were thinking of me on my day.

I'm so lucky to have the friends i do. =)

so i got to go out for good food with good friends, and i reached lvl 80 finally, in chapters of all places. i got molested by 12 people on tiny dance floor, and while some find that great i found it gross, but after i moved us to a different area it was pretty fun to bust a move again. i had my groove on it was awesome.

thanks for the great day guys! this is an awesome year!


Yes, I understand that every life must end, uh-huh
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, uh-huh
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones I love
Some folks just have one, yeah, others, they've got none

Stay with me...
Let's just breathe...

Practiced all my sins, never gonna let me win, uh-huh
Under everything, just another human being, uh-huh
I don't wanna hurt, there's so much in this world to make me believe

Stay with me
You're all I see...

Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see
No one knows this more than me

As I come clean...
I wonder everyday, as I look upon your face, uh-huh
Everything you gave
And nothing you would save, oh no

Nothing you would take
Everything you gave...

Did I say that I need you?
Oh, did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
And I come clean, ah...

Nothing you would take
Everything you gave
Hold me til I die
Meet you on the other side...

just some blabbing until i bore myself to sleep

my birthday is quickly approaching and i'm a lil excited to get out of town for it. i figure something different since this year is gonna be completely different. it's full of awesomeness and wicked friends and amazing family and just little twinkles of miracles that sparkle when you least expect them. i should really be sleeping with the crazy ass schedule i have going on this week. but i have so many things i'm trying to rememememeber ugh. maybe if i make a list that would help but i'm so wiped from this past week and head cold that i just don't have the energy to look for a pen. my glow in the dark eye ball pen failed today. it needs a new refill but it's by merange so it sucks. i loved that pen. i'll post a pic of it cuz i love it so much. anyways i'm gonna try to sleep. thanks for the movie and diet coke tonight dmaster. and DING i hit 79 today sw00t, yeah i'm a dork but i love it and i know you love me that way too....well most of you do hehehehe. night night folks

busy busy busy zonked

So in a few days I will have a house guest for two weeks. I guess she would be my god sister? sounds so weird to say that since my definition of god isn't exactly what most people have in mind when they say "his" name. plus we're not really related but i think you get the picture.


she's like a sister in that she's been in my life since i can remember, which also includes a memory of biting the hell out of her when i was 1 at my birthday party because she got to play with the little rainbow sandal key chain of my moms and i always wanted to play with it but wasn't allowed. i swear this is my first memory, and my mom had said i bit her but no one ever knew why, but i can distinctly remember this incident and why. Seriously why should this girl who's not my mom's daughter be allowed to have such a treasure. oh well. i'm better at sharing now. but i'll never forget that rainbow strapped black foam mini sandal key chain. Maybe i'm still harbouring a mini grudge, although i doubt this one will come down to biting.

i've been suffering through this ungodly (i'm sure talking a lot about god in this post) work schedule of day nights day nights. i think it is time to figure a new plan out when it comes to this schedule, perhaps a chat with a certain mangertype lady or something. my sleep schedule is fux'd and i can't sleep enough. last night i worked 1130pm-7am then picked up a double from 7am-330pm and went home to sleep for a few hours. Those few but precious minutes that combined to make even less hours, was the best sleep of absolute K.O. time i've had in months. i hope that i can get some sleep like that today after this night shift (yes that's right i worked a double then short changed my cute lil ass off) *sigh* i'm starting not to feel so hot either, and there's been a lot of colds and flu's going around at work.

hopefully i can have some time to play with my newly lvl'd druid. yup i ding'd 78 this weekend. which also makes me feel like a big nerd but a very satisfied big nerd.

all i can think about is in 4 days i'll be enjoying my pre birthday and in 5 my actual birthday. i can make it that long.

purging

why do i get so scared with somethings. change is good, i live for change, i'm constantly hitting the reset button. but lately it seems i'm doing so with less vigor. not really a bad thing, i think i'm mellowing out a ton in my "old age". i'm making more realistic decisions and planning for a great future, but not holding any expectations. but somethings are just hard to do. i cleaned out half of my basement and while it felt so good to get rid of so much stuff i don't need it was hard to part with some of the stuff that brought back memories, good, bad, ugly, unforgettable, beautiful and just plain ol' moments in time once spent with those loved, lost, hated, and inspired. with each item i physically touched, a memory so vivid came flooding back. it was the cheapest form of therapy you could ask for. but was i ready? i think i was ready a long time ago and just didn't have the insight to see i was. this year is still shaping up better then i could have imagined, and i know that with all the people who love me so much and i love them, it's going to be amazing. thanks for helping me with the basement mom. i couldn't have done it without you.

nottalottamuch

my schedule has me a bit cluster fuxd with my sleep and stuff so i'm sorry i haven't been posting much. all i've wanted to do lately is sleep. and i'm a bit scattered when i am awake and i really zone out a lot. so if this isn't "working" by the end of the month trial of it i think i'm gonna have to make sure things are changed.

not too much going on lately. i'm pretty boring since all i do is sleep, work and maybe play a bit of wow. i'm 76 right now and not so bad at healing. :) hmmmm i sound really lame. good thing i'm going on a few road trips to etown and calgary in the next week.

it's going to be my birthday soon and for the first time in many years i'm not really doing anything big with all my friends. i just don't have the time or energy to put anything together. so instead i'm having dinner with everyone at different times through out. that's alright by me.

well i'm out, nothing really new to report. maybe i'll take a bunch of photos this week and post some pics or something.

pinkity pink not purple

so for the past two days i have been tossing, chucking, purging, and basically getting rid of the junk i've gathered, collected, squirreled and carried with me. it's been really tough to get rid of somethings but when i look back it feels really good to have a fresh start. what could i possibly have you ask? waaaaaaay too much fabric, wool, and cards written to people that were never sent, cards from my previous marriage, clothes that i will NEVER wear again because they have holes, shrunk, or are just not my style anymore. shoes that don't fit, half missing puzzles, ex's shirts or jackets, half finished projects that i'll never get to or don't want to finish. i had a lot of stuff. i'm still not done with this process, but it's more then half done. i'm so excited to finish it up. shouldn't take more than another 2 days.

also i dyed my hair more of a purple color and i hate it. i'm pining now for my pink. *sigh* i think it's time for a hair cut....again.

i'm down 11.4 lbs. this is turning out to be a great way to start a new year. i'm really excited to see what's next.

oh and i FINALLY got my garden pink plastic garden flamingo to make a lamp!!! i'm so excited. thanks dallas!

great start

so i had a little conversation with abs today, she wanted to talk which is a bit odd usually she's too busy but today she felt conversation was good.

abs-whatchya doin

me-sleeping

why

cuz i sleep in the day and work at night time.

oh that means you're nocturnal, you're a night person....bat's and possums are nocturnal and so are hamsters.

yeah, you're absolutely right, how did you get so smart?

i just am, you know what i got for christmas, a necklace, but then i put it in a box to give to a girl in africa, i already have a lot of old necklaces and don't really need a new one, but she probably doesn't have any so i'm giving her this nice new one.

that's really generous and unselfish of you abs

yeah i want to go to africa really bad

yeah me too. maybe in a year or two i'll go, i want to help babies that are sick

wow that's really cool, think we could meet up there, like go at the same time?

maybe when you're older. i'm going to go for at least 8 months by the sounds of things.

wow i want to live there for a few years....when i'm older not right now. is africa a country or bigger?

it's a continent, like north america, north america is Canada, US and Mexcio put together africa is like that.

wow we better make plans where to meet up then.

yup.

we chatted for a while longer then she went and got my dad to talk to me for a bit. he said that every time he tried to go in the room she'd wave him out. it was pretty cute, she was laying on the bed using speaker phone on her tummy with head propped up on her hands and elbows. it was the greatest way to start the new year.