I really miss blogging. I miss getting all the ideas out of my head and thrown into the blogisphere. I'm not even sure what  to write anymore. Today was pretty rad. It's Wednesday night hype on twitch. I watch my favourite happy hardcore dj's on wed. Weaver, Kutski, Daghardcore and Dj2bhappy, seatlehardcore. It's great. Nifty got me lights to set up for the event. I love them. He came by this morning after giving me a ride to work and we hung out. He told me last time he doesn't want a relationship with me and that's cool. I just don't get why guys don't want a relationship with me. I'm fucking amazing and cool and hot and rad. But at the same time I don't think I want a relationship. I kinda like being on my own and doing what ever I want with whoever I want whenever I want. My life has been pretty simple lately. I go skiing with Nikkei and Stephen and work and rave in my living room for wed night hype. I like my little life though. It works for me. For the first time I feel like I have control over what's going on in my life and I'm not on a roller coaster. I think it helps I have quit drinking since Aug. Sounds cliche but life is fuller now. Full of good things and less mistakes. I still make mistakes but they aren't smh wtf mistakes. I don't have as many mood swings either which has been a blessing. I also get more done. I'm more productive. I do miss drinking now and again But as a whole, it's been a good thing.