Saturday, July 8, 2023


 Abby had A Bee!

Thursday, May 25, 2023

I wanna talk about me myself and I

 Well the mini one is about to join the world of the tattoo'd tomorrow. I can't wait to see my girl JenDanger and experience with this with my mini one. She's frigging 19yrs old now! How is this possible?


I'll post photos tomorrow, I think I'm going to start blogging more again. It really helps me personally. I love being able to go back and read what had been going on. If no one reads this that's ok too. I just want to do this for me. 

Friday, November 4, 2022

This is still a thing



 My life’s got flipped turned upside down. 


I work at a drug treatment centre on night shift and I love working out. How crazy awesome is this? I’m so happy in my life right now I even have clean laundry hung up and folded say whaaaaaaat? I know this is life changing but I’m happy and so is zilly

Wednesday, January 20, 2021

 I really miss blogging. I miss getting all the ideas out of my head and thrown into the blogisphere. I'm not even sure what  to write anymore. Today was pretty rad. It's Wednesday night hype on twitch. I watch my favourite happy hardcore dj's on wed. Weaver, Kutski, Daghardcore and Dj2bhappy, seatlehardcore. It's great. Nifty got me lights to set up for the event. I love them. He came by this morning after giving me a ride to work and we hung out. He told me last time he doesn't want a relationship with me and that's cool. I just don't get why guys don't want a relationship with me. I'm fucking amazing and cool and hot and rad. But at the same time I don't think I want a relationship. I kinda like being on my own and doing what ever I want with whoever I want whenever I want. My life has been pretty simple lately. I go skiing with Nikkei and Stephen and work and rave in my living room for wed night hype. I like my little life though. It works for me. For the first time I feel like I have control over what's going on in my life and I'm not on a roller coaster. I think it helps I have quit drinking since Aug. Sounds cliche but life is fuller now. Full of good things and less mistakes. I still make mistakes but they aren't smh wtf mistakes. I don't have as many mood swings either which has been a blessing. I also get more done. I'm more productive. I do miss drinking now and again But as a whole, it's been a good thing. 

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Missing You Dave





I still have no idea where you disappeared to but I was listening to the cheese files and Roxette and both made me think of you. I hope where ever you are you are happy.

Monday, September 14, 2015

Hitting the reset button once again....

HJ and I broke up months and ago.I miss him and the kids but I'm actually ok with it. I wasn't at first of course but now that the dust is settling I'm letting go and getting back to normal. I'm craving change at work. I want so badly to move to Edmonton again. There's just so much more for me there. I'd miss my family and be further from the Mini One. But that would never stop me from driving further to see her all of the time still. I find myself doing more with my friends now. I try to get out a few times a week. Like this week I went to Weird Al with BisH and Frisbee Golfing with Sarah Pickle and Dalt yesterday. Then bowling with Daphne and her man tonight.

One of the reasons I want to blog tonight is because I'm worried about someone really close to me. She found out that she has lumps and they aren't the good lady lump kinda lumps. I'm putting on a brave face for her and I know my blog freaks her out and she doesn't read it so I don't mind writing about this. I'm terrified and scared of losing someone who means the world to me in more ways than one. She's been my rock for years. And now I'm faced with the idea that I might lose the one person who keeps me continually grounded with her rockness. I don't think I'm going to tell anyone about this except for all you people who read this which I don't think anyone does any more. But at least then it's out of my head and into some form of reality.

Gotta make the most out of the little life we're given. I have to say that I've found a new strength and am moving forwards. PS. counselling really helps a lot. Don't ever be ashamed to ask for help. And no matter what I'll always be there for any of you.


Wednesday, August 20, 2014

home sweet home

Finally back in my house. I missed it so much. I love it more than ever now. It feels good to have the boys here too. HJ and I have so many big plans for it. TILE TILE TILE sw00n. The boys love their big rooms and are happy to be so close to the skate park. Life is great. Just got our house warming prezzy from my mom two giant silver key coat hangers and a glitzy vase. I feel great I have a new car, new digs and amazing friends and family to celebrate this with. our dogs even love the new place with the super big back yard. I can't wait until we build the basement bedroom and then I can finally have a sewing room again.

Works been good home life is grand and we're looking forward to a trip to mexico this winter to watch my sister get married finally. I am itching to get back into sewing skirts. I love skirts and how girly they are which is far from what I am but I still love it.

I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore....I don't really care though I keep writing cuz it's for me.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Appreciation at its finest

Really appreciating life as it is in this moment.

I have supportive family, friends and Co workers. But most of all I have a super supportive man who has helped me grow as a person and been there for me through thick and thin. Thanks for being here through the thick right now. It hasn't been easy for you but just know I appreciate every gesture, every hug and every encouraging word along with the space I've needed to grieve. I love you hottie Josh with all my heart and guts. Xoxoxx

Thursday, May 22, 2014

i feel better after posting this





sometimes i get so mad that i miss you at all now but mostly i'm just sad that things happened the way they did, this song came on the radio when i was driving yesterday and everything came pouring back into my mind. i doubt you read this and i doubt you feel that way too at times but i do. not often but once every few months your memory spills over into recognition.




Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Calgary Comic Expo


















took the mini one to the calgary comic expo for her 10th birthday. we all dressed up as rainbow dash....even hottiejosh. best day of the year so far...many more to come. LOVE these two so much. <3 p="">

GODZILLA

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