so i had a patient who told me he'd split my head open wide with a double headed axe and it reminded me of this song that N used to sing to me to get me to go to sleep when i was drunk, he'd sing this song and 99 red balloons and/or tell me the story of the princess and the pea....
ya i was spoiled back then.

painful reminder - snfu
The young boy had fallen in love
With his homeroom teacher
He has fallen in love

It happens everyday
In schools throughout the city
Throughout the city

She was married, he did learn
And inside he did burn
Deep inside he did burned

He vowed that never again
Would he open his heart
Open up his hear

And to serve as a reminder
He painted her a picture
This painful reminder
And he keeps it in his binder
This painful reminder

The next day in his art class
He drew a picture of her
With an axe in her head

A picture's worth a thousand words
Even those left unsaid
Those best left unsaid

Now he walks the halls alone
But it is for the better
Alone...alone...alone

He vowed that never again
Would he open his heart
Oh no! never again!

And to serve as a reminder...

The perfect K and the perfect A

I had the longest phone conversation with the mini one today. Turns out she's quite the computer nerd. I have no idea where she gets that from... she was telling me how to print super hero pictures and how to log on to web sites. She told me how to spell and how to print the perfect A's and K's. We talk on the phone often but not for long periods of time, but today she was feeling chatty and "taught" me a few things. She's so great. Comes on a day when I really needed to hear her voice. It always amazes me how connected the two of us are in an unsaid bond that just seems to happen. Our relationship is more then anything I could have ever imagined and I'm so grateful to A and R for allowing it to blossom the way it has. I'm the luckiest ever.


I look back a year ago today, and I know I'm doing way better and the choices I had to go through last year have paid off. I'm healthier and of sound mind. I've had to endure a lot over the last year and I don't regret a single one of them. I don't think I mourned properly over the loss of my 2 dear loved ones last year but I did this year and things are looking up. I've got a better job, better stability, my health is way way way better, mentally and physically and spiritually. I have a bright future ahead and friends and family who are amazing. I just want to say thank you to everyone who helped me get through this past year. It's been tough but I'm on the upswing now! Nothing is forever and nothing can be a sure thing, but that's also why I love my life so much. Never a dull moment! Anything is possible. :)

going back

so you would think with my new toy i would be blogging a lot more often because now i can blog from anywhere. but alas i am falling behind, i'm working nights and it seems to fill my days up with sleep. and i don't really mind that at all. weird to think i sleep more now.

had a super rad day yesterday. went to a movie and dinner with a guy i haven't seen in 23 years. our families are friends going all the way back to our grandparents being friends. it was soooooo good to see him. we had a rad day. i can't wait to see him again. i really want to visit his grandparents this year at some point too. they've always been like family. welcoming with open arms, i love that.

yay

after a hellish few months things are starting to look up, today was one of the greatest days I've had in a super long time. I got a new laptop finally since my last one had the hard drive missing along with some other of it's gutz, my mom took me out to look at "my bike" and a friend that I had when I was 7 called me up and is bailing on his boarding buddy to drive up here and hang out with me for sunday. and one of my roomates is gone so I am an extremely happy little soul. seriously, things are finally looking up again. things are looking up!

SW00T

pink yellow and blue

this made me smile i hope it does the same for you!

I'm determined to go fast!

so i'm pining over and kinda thinking about bikes again...hmmmmm

my miggity miggity mac daddy cam

so after a love hate relationship my buddy cam is moving on. we got along great for the most part except for anytime i actually wanted to do something cool. him and my ex husband seem to get along waaaaay better now so i figure it's a good move for cam to go to Edmonton. we had fun when we had our connection over boots but that connection is gone and now it seems we just frustrate each other. but i will always hold a special place in my heart for him and I'm sure we'll bump into each other online once in awhile or IRL when I'm up visiting in Edmonton/Leduc area. You were the apple of my eye. I've felt alone in the relationship, only my dad understood it and I'm sure he will understand my negating on this end of the spectrum once I explain. But until we meet again cam, I love you and thanks for all the memories. Lovez you buddy! I'll always think you're hawt.

I like your tricycle

i can't get it out of my head, "the road cone protects my head" I love it!

Bush Vs. Zombies

so i was blowing time on youtube and came across this video and had to publish it, it's freaking awesome.

just to let you know....

I'm freezing cold. and the fish tank didn't get cleaned :P

must be love

lego says rawr

so i got new kicks, these are them. i think it's love. finally a love that will last for at least 8 years if i'm good to them. it may not be forever but if they are as good to me as my last etnies i'll be blessed. *swoon*









figured i'd throw this in for the pine cone mafia, the science center was lucky they had these puppies locked up.

reminder of the day for me

so i've been struggling lately with a few things. its all good. i learn from each struggle, and i'm doing pretty good with this one. remember me saying i have an uncanny knack for timing. well the odd thing is i think of someone then let them know i'm thinking of them by sending them a quick text or message or leave a voice mail on thier phone. i have a friend who does the same thing for me. we don't talk a lot but we send eachother little notes every so often and it always seems to be when each needs it the most. well today i got an email from her and it's totally what i needed to hear. So just incase you need to hear it here's what she sent me.

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you
NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you
into the person you were meant to be.


LOVE YOU!!!!!

One Flaw In Women

Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what
makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their
family and friends.

Women have vital things to say
and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN....

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

Time after Time

Seriously, I have the most unusual sense of timing. Right people, right place, wrong time. It truly is the story of my life. I do the right things the way you're supposed to do it but my timing is off. Yet I have all these moments of phenomenal Synchronicity that couldn't possibly appear without being on a perfect scale of timing. One of my friends who I play online with said it best "you and you're timing, it's always on time at being off". I couldn't agree more. And you would think with my ability to dream* I'd have a better sense of timing. I believe everything happens for a reason, maybe I'm supposed to catch a glimpse of a situation so I don't have to go through the full scenario. I dunno. I just get frustrated by this timing thing. Maybe I should start wearing a watch? Blah.

what an unreal year this has been. as much as i feel i'm floating through my life in bliss, there's these few moments where I can't believe things are happening.

Stuck in my head

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me

I can't get this song out of my head even though it's old-ish but the line a thousand clever lines un read on clever napkins reminds me of all the letters and notes i write that i never send

hoping that things slow down in the bad news department soon. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family sweetie. I know you're strong enough to get through this. Just know you're not alone
ever.

not fast and furious

more like slow and tedious, ugh tonight I dropped off a card for the Sasquatch, and this is what it looked like (sorry no pic unless he sends me one of it) it had a Sasquatch, fire with a happy face, and a dragon, but the dragon was drawn quickly (by me) and had two tails, one just happened to look like a penis so inside the card read Happy Birthday Kirk, sorry about the dragon with the penis it just sort of happened.

I was greatly disappointed that I wasn't gonna get to go with the GSO to fast and the furious, it was a sad state of affairs. But then Dmaster was gonna go with me tonight (gso was going tomorrow when I was working :( ) anyways so I went to go see it tonight but the stupid thing was sold out for all shows. So instead of fast and the furious we went to The wrestler. It was the opposite of Fast and Furious, it was slow and tedious and ya. Not impressed with it at all. Hopefully I'll get to see FF next week. :)

Sent in my taxes, made some appointments and started cleaning out the other room for a new renter. Should be good to go for next week.