home sweet home

Finally back in my house. I missed it so much. I love it more than ever now. It feels good to have the boys here too. HJ and I have so many big plans for it. TILE TILE TILE sw00n. The boys love their big rooms and are happy to be so close to the skate park. Life is great. Just got our house warming prezzy from my mom two giant silver key coat hangers and a glitzy vase. I feel great I have a new car, new digs and amazing friends and family to celebrate this with. our dogs even love the new place with the super big back yard. I can't wait until we build the basement bedroom and then I can finally have a sewing room again.

Works been good home life is grand and we're looking forward to a trip to mexico this winter to watch my sister get married finally. I am itching to get back into sewing skirts. I love skirts and how girly they are which is far from what I am but I still love it.

I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore....I don't really care though I keep writing cuz it's for me.

Appreciation at its finest

Really appreciating life as it is in this moment.

I have supportive family, friends and Co workers. But most of all I have a super supportive man who has helped me grow as a person and been there for me through thick and thin. Thanks for being here through the thick right now. It hasn't been easy for you but just know I appreciate every gesture, every hug and every encouraging word along with the space I've needed to grieve. I love you hottie Josh with all my heart and guts. Xoxoxx

i feel better after posting this

sometimes i get so mad that i miss you at all now but mostly i'm just sad that things happened the way they did, this song came on the radio when i was driving yesterday and everything came pouring back into my mind. i doubt you read this and i doubt you feel that way too at times but i do. not often but once every few months your memory spills over into recognition.

Calgary Comic Expo

took the mini one to the calgary comic expo for her 10th birthday. we all dressed up as rainbow dash....even hottiejosh. best day of the year so far...many more to come. LOVE these two so much. <3 p="">

From here to there

Lots of things are going on. HJ and I are getting geared up to take the mini one to the Calgary comic expo where her and I will have matching rainbow dash hoodies tails and tutus! We're also cleaning up the yard getting ready for spring and summer. Just got a new bbq and he's teaching me the finer points in bbqing. He's so good to me. We're also getting ready to take the boys out hiking this year and true camping with fishing. We have a couple trips planned and things are looking up. Sure gonna beat last years spring/summer of chaos with my arm happenings. We're all looking forward to this summer. It's going to be epic!

changes are good

I have to say this mindfulness is pretty rad. I've been using it in a part of my everyday and it's been astonishing the out come of it all. I've also been practising silence which has made a huge change in my mood too.

on a completely different note or maybe not....skull candy ear buds actually sound better than my ipod ear buds. I honestly didn't think that it would make a huge difference but it really does. The sounds are cleaner and deeper.

Here goes everything for me.

Haven't had time to be on here in a long time. But I have to keep a journal of my happenings as of late so I figured I'd post them on here instead of keeping them to myself in a regular journal. (which is what i've been doing lately)

It's day two of my mindfulness experience. I'm being mindful of how the shampoo in my shower. Sounds stupid but it takes a lot to connect ones self to the plants that were growing then harvested and carefully separated to make my shampoo and how it flows out of the pump and nourishes my hair as I scrub it.

It's also day one of working out to 30 day shred. I hated it, I swore at the host the whole time and felt embarrassed even though it was only me down stairs working out. I'm so out of shape and over weight but blogging about it is hopefully going to keep me motivated to keep going with it and give me some where I can record my victories and successes and failures and weaknesses until I'm able to be strong enough to endure kickboxing for an hour. Here goes nothing.