Thursday, December 31, 2009

top of the tops for 2009

top list for 2009

~loosing my panda bear~
you are so greatly missed
but i completely understand.
love you lots panda

learning about how joffery works
(
saved my sanity that night )

my 30th year game and jersey to match me!

driving out for the best milk shake ever and going on the one lane bridge

ab's giving a little biology/family tree lesson at her graduation

finding out i'm going to be an aunty again

playing x's and o's with the captain at 4am on the couch

30

screeching weasel with the super cute one

stitching gutz i <3

my position at work =D

losing the first 5 of many

mcdonalds with jon g.

Elizabeth and Ryan's wedding!!!!!

WOW

meeting ALEX cuz she effin rocks

my piece of snuggle cardboard

late night phone calls from across the pond

paintings

all the hardcore duo moments and hugs

long drive to calgary and even longer walk from warped to the car but a phenomenal day with one of my bestest friends including a nap in the sun listening to punk rock thanks D. hopefully i didn't complain too much on the way home.

blink 182 with murmur and a super hawt lady!

:an's emails

infection figured out!

zombieland dress up with monkey butt

road trips with the gso
especially the last one to calgary, meant more to me then he'll know

night shifts with my favorites

long drives with bosman

last but not least


SW00T

it w
as a year of ups and downs started out crap but ended up pretty darn awesome.
thanks gang can't wait for 2010!


Monday, December 28, 2009

and then there is one ....one little post wawawa

i had drafted 8 posts but then they some how were only drafts and not published then i lost all but one little post that was the one below this one.

lots has been happening. i am getting moved to another unit. still working in concurrent disorders just on another unit that's larger. i'm looking forward to it, i'm always up for change and new things. my reference had lunch with me the other day. he's worked on addiction units and he gave me a lot of great advice that changes from working in a rehab/dry out center to a dual diagnosis unit. it was great. i took a lot from it and hopefully i can be a better aide for it.

the gso got a full time job on the unit attatched to my new one and i'm so happy for him! we worked together the other week and he saved me by picking up a coffee for me. i'm so excited for him. he got me a world of warcraft game card for xmas! i totally needed one mine ran out the day i got it. lol. good timing or what. i blame him for getting me hooked on it, i love when we get to play together. makes it more fun for sure. still not sure which i love more playing wow with him or watching movies with him and eating rediculous amounts of candy until our tummy hurts, either way anytime with him is a good time for sure.
that was the start of some pretty stellar gifts. like the one from my bestest friend bosman. i'm already spoiled with the fact that's always there for me and one of the strongest men with the biggest heart i know but then he goes and spoils me with a gift that made me break down and cry..... the best painting ever called couture.

christmas was as always a busy time, but for me it was busy cuz i filled it with work, double time and over time, shortchanging then driving to calgary. haven't been into christmas in the last 8 years. especially since my gramma passed away. i still love watching the kids but that's about it. oh well maybe that's just the way it goes for some people. i would rather have another halloween on christmas but apparently it's just a movie and blink song so on we go. it was great to see my dad this year and family in calgary. my dad's gifts made me cry, a photo album of how much he loves me. a portable hard drive and photos in frames and a usb glitter lava lamp iced the cakes.

mom and darryl got me into a weight loss program and i'm sure that will be the biggest change for me for 2010. along with journals and other great things. and Dmaster, got me a wallet (i desperately needed) done by another one of my fave artists. Camilla d'Errico. it's lovely. and i got a book from :an called sense and sensibility and sea monsters. should be awesome.

Friday, December 11, 2009

brrrrrr

Not sure what's going on in this little bodkin of mine but on the unit i work on i keep cycling through hot and cold, it's really annoying. one minute i'm down to a t shirt, then a long sleeved shirt THEN i'm darting to the coat hooks to grab my bunny hug cuz i"m ffffffreeeeeeeezing. Next i'll be raiding the blanket warmer! Those have to be the greatest inventions ever. I keep the blow dryer beside my bed to warm it up. I'm too lazy and cold to go all the way downstairs and throw the blankies in the dryer to warm em up so this will do for now.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

the sound track to a perfect moment

I still stand by that this is the ultimate song of the red ball explanation of how I think and I still love the original video of the throwies where i found this song. its so pretty.....

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I'm ready Bring it on!

I can't say enough how grateful I am to my circle of besties. You guys are always there for me and I totally appreciate that. Never telling me what I have to do or what I'm going to do, you all listen, allowing me to vent, the offer me the best support a girl could imagine. You offer the art of listening without judging, you offer a hug, you offer to come to appointments that are scary or events that will become memories. You understand I'm not going to have expectations or ask for help often. You just show up at random and help with the situation not trying to fix it as that would take away from the whole learning curve I'm experiencing. You give words of encouragement or distraction, you sincerely listen and afterwards say things like "i know i can't make it better but i am here to support you in anyway i can" or just the simple "i love you" when least expected or compliment on a whim. Those are what get me through my day and keep me sailing forward.

A lot of you know I've been sick for the last 6 months fighting infection after infection and that similar situations had been happening for years with a short stint of freedom in between. I'm taking a controversial medication in order to prevent further infection and pretty much wipe out the ones in progress. While I'm a bit scared of the side effects, and not completely excited about completely changing my plans over the next two years for it, I am certain that this is my higher power's plan for me and I trust that I'm ready for it and strong enough to make it through. I have the greatest support system out there, Bosman, Dallas, the GSO, Brenty, Dmaster and the girls. Mar has been there for me through everything and especially with our parents away she's been a huge support for me. I have the most supportive parents who care so much about me I'm so blessed. (not all of this came easily, those who know our story, know this too a freaking long time to get to where we are and with a great deal of struggle, but it was worth the wait) and I'm sure with their guidance and help I'll be able to get through the next year at least and find an answer to a few if not a fist full of questions I have on this whole ordeal. I'm debating on blogging about it or not. I think it's an interesting time for health and health care right now or that could just be because it's my profession.

I just have to say again though I'm soo appreciative of your guy's support and love and friendship and with all of it I'm excited to get this done and move on to the next challenge. I'm ready, Bring it On!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

time well spent with the captain

I'd like to officially thank captain picnic for the last 2 1/2 hours i have wasted trying to play bloons. Even though you're all the way in Saskatchewan, I know you were here in spirit cheering me on through each level that I swore at all the way to lvl 32. Great game great effin game (that's right i said effin!)

Saturday, December 5, 2009

snow day

so i got completely stuck backing out of my house, Dameon came and saved me,

Thursday, December 3, 2009

the system is down

turns out some people had no idea what i was referencing in my video clip of the street lamp with me singing doodoodoodoodoo so here it is folks. Strong bad the techno email... here's also a link to the car video

Face-Off With a Deadly Predator

effin awesome

updaterd

so i got the line at work that i wanted, i also hit my hours for a raise and now i get benefits and that thing called a pension if i make my hours. yay!

i'm hoping now i can have some more free time to hang out with people, and blog. i still think on night shift i should bring in my laptop and type everything out in word then go publish it in the morning when i get home.

also in news i ding'd my world of warcraft toon up to lvl 68 yup i'm pretending i'm going to be a big girl now. it's only taken me forever and a day plus 2. and a lot of help from bosman lancey pants and the gso and kimi and a few others. but i'll make it to 80 eventually! who'da thunk i'd be playing WoW lol.

i don't know why but i'm so bipolar when it comes to christmas. i love the tree, i love the lights(but not the stupid led ones that give me twitchy eyes), but i hate the idea of it, i hate HAVING to buy people gifts by a certain time, and i hate waiting to see what i got and i hate christmas shopping. I don't mind some of the music. But i just hate being forced into it all and i prolly have a bit of bitterness with the whole idea that i don't get to see my mini munchkin open presents. i know that's selfish but it comes up a lot. i see her lots through the year, and honestly if i had the opportunity to see her on christmas morning i might pass it up as it would be too raw and painful. christmas, her birthday, her family day and mothers day are all days that while most of the time i'm ok, other years it hurts. don't get me wrong though, i'm so happy with my life now and with how things turned out and what direction they are going in. i'm so grateful for everything, but that doesn't mean i don't have moments where i slip into the what would it be like pauses. they only last a moment but a moment is enough. maybe i'm a grinch for not LOVING christmas but i promise i'll smile through it and do so sincerely at the parts i enjoy and i won't steal it from you. ;)

and while i may not be counting down till xmas (btw don't worry i will send my xmas cards around valentines day as per usual, sent them on time a few years back and freaked everyone out, so no worries folks) but i am counting down to screeching weasel!!! Dal and i are going and i couldn't be more excited *swoon*

GODZILLA

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