i miss you so much mandy, i just can't explain why it's been hurting so much these days. i think i need to go back to grief counseling or something. i keep thinking how close of a connection we had, how proud both of us were of our children and of our adoption stories. i think about how easily we could be in the others shoes. i love you sweetie and i miss you so much.
i was thinking all the sadness could be coming out because i'm back on antibiotics and they make me teary. i get less absorption of my vitamins and that throws me every time. not to mention makes me incredibly tired. oh well hopefully my hair cut tomorrow will make it better. (I also miss :AN shhhh it's a secret)
went to visit the mini one and almost started crying while we were watching youtube vids and i was tearing up as i pulled out of the drive way today. we had an awesome visit.
she's the greatest kid ever. i know everyone says that about their kids, but honestly the way she understands everything blows my mind away every time. she just totally 'gets' the adoption and what she doesn't understand she asks questions until its settled in her mind. she just 'gets' big things in life while still continuing to be awed by the wonders she's discovering as she grows up. like i texted to the GSO and Brenty and bosman, it's hard to leave her always but sometimes its harder then others, and today was one of those days. she gave me a plastic glo bracelet so i wouldn't be scared of the dark, with instructions if the power goes out i have to phone her so i won't be scared cuz she'll remind me to use the bracelet and then it won't be totally dark. and i had to have it on the drive home so i wouldn't be scared driving in the dark. i love the one we call mini.
i was thinking all the sadness could be coming out because i'm back on antibiotics and they make me teary. i get less absorption of my vitamins and that throws me every time. not to mention makes me incredibly tired. oh well hopefully my hair cut tomorrow will make it better. (I also miss :AN shhhh it's a secret)
went to visit the mini one and almost started crying while we were watching youtube vids and i was tearing up as i pulled out of the drive way today. we had an awesome visit.
she's the greatest kid ever. i know everyone says that about their kids, but honestly the way she understands everything blows my mind away every time. she just totally 'gets' the adoption and what she doesn't understand she asks questions until its settled in her mind. she just 'gets' big things in life while still continuing to be awed by the wonders she's discovering as she grows up. like i texted to the GSO and Brenty and bosman, it's hard to leave her always but sometimes its harder then others, and today was one of those days. she gave me a plastic glo bracelet so i wouldn't be scared of the dark, with instructions if the power goes out i have to phone her so i won't be scared cuz she'll remind me to use the bracelet and then it won't be totally dark. and i had to have it on the drive home so i wouldn't be scared driving in the dark. i love the one we call mini.
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