fast forward today please

i've been playing with some new layouts for my blog. i've talked about changing stuff before but didn't. now i have some templates to work with that i really like so who knows it may make it's way on here....change is good right?

had a crappy day today. woke up late, scrambled to get ready, slept through lunch with dellertson, dropped off coffee and candy for the gso since he was working a day shift and that always sucks(i hate the week of days he works i'll be honest but at least all the other evenings work out), went to a really nice baby shower, but i'm not a baby shower kinda person. i'm happy with just having my mini one and when i go to stuff like that everyone asks when i'm having more kids. and i hate answering that. some days there's a part of me that wants more kids...kids aren't even the issue...i just don't ever want to go through pregnancy again. it's like 98% of me never wants it and 2% of me does but it's pretty easy to quash that 2% as soon as i think back to labor....gawd that was horrible. people say you forget about it after a few years....i'm going on 6 and it's still like it was yesterday. so i guess i'll live vicariously through my siblings and friends having babies. i really don't mind that at all. i know if i was to parent i would be a great mommy. but i know it's just not in the cards to give birth again and that's ok with me. =)

so after the shower i went to work, worked with great people but it must be a full moon or something because shit went sideways all night. came home needing some love and a hug, didn't really get any. now i'm just pouting and gonna go to sleep. i just want today to be done so tomorrow can be better. i want to crawl under the covers and hide from the world. i'm sure tomorrow i'll feel better after sleeping in. i can't wait until my days off so i can see the mini one and go to bonzai and eat yummy food with a super awesome guy. oh and if you see me tomorrow give me a hug, it'll be needed i think.