well better late then never

I had this talk with the GSO a week before it actually happened, I broke down and cried and let it all out how much I hate birth mother's day. I would apologize for offending anyone regarding this day but really? it's my blog.

I understand why there's a birth mother's day. (for those of you who don't know it's the Saturday before mother's day, because before a mother there was a birth mom) I understand some people need this day. For me personally, I don't. I am a mother, maybe not a parent, but a mother none the less. In my mind I see this as taking away mother's day for me. I spent my first mother's day as a parent. I had my daughter and we celebrated that day together. Maybe that's why this is all so touchy of a subject for me. I got a tin box with purple flowers on it full of chocolates, I keep all her pictures and stuff from when I parented her in it. I think it's important to honor all types of mom's on mother's day instead of making a separate one for birth mother's. Foster Mom's, Birth Mom's, Step Mom's, Adoptive Mom's, The Neighbourhood Mom (you know the one who could give you heck or kiss your owie better almost as good as your mom but not quite) All moms should be recognized on the day instead of segregating. And for some it's just an extra day to feel a loss or another reminder of pain you go through. I know some feel it's a celebration but for me I feel so drained after the whole event. Again. I understand some people need this day. I'm just giving my opinion.

So when I got a call from my mini one on mother's day it made everything a lot easier. I'm lucky I'm still a big part in her life. I hope that we will always be close and have a special bond that will never break. I love her more than anything in the world. She's my greatest treasure and greatest gift. Every time I leave her when I visit, it hurts as much as it did June 2004. The only difference is I know for sure I will see her again soon and that she's happy and safe and I know how much her super awesome wonderful family is first hand. And that makes me feel a lot more secure and alright on my way home. To the one they call mini, thanks for the special day we share together. And to the one they call mini's parents, thanks for being my extended family and sharing such amazing and wonderful times with you and your kids.

And last but not least, thanks to the guy who let me cry on his shoulder before this day, and spent the latter part of the day making me feel normal and loved, I couldn't have made it through without you. Thanks to my Marrrreee, Brenty, Serfx, DarkKnight and my parents for being supportive this week. you guys are such huge supports for me always.

here's a link to a story of open adoption hope it gives you a glimpse.

I'd also like to conclude, I've never been a fan of hallmark days Christmas, Mother's day, Valentines Day so this might also be where the animosity of the whole thing stems from. I honestly believe we should be showing, telling and enjoying all relationships in our lives as much as possible without having a special day to do them on. So after reading this go hug someone you care about and tell someone you love how much you love them cuz every day we have with them is a super special day of it's own. (i'm done so those of you who hate sappy shit can go puke now)