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Had a really long day at the hospital today. I wish I could have skipped it cuz of the weather. We ended up going last night so that we wouldn't miss the appointments today. I had appointments with 3 specialists and 2 doctors that weren't specialists. I'm feeling pretty nauseated and yucky and worn out. This is my second trip to Calgary for this and I have another one on Tuesday... I'm so sick of being poked and recorded and filling out the same sheets over and over. But Tuesday is my last trip so that should be a good thing right?

My pillow smells of baby lotion hmmm I wonder why, thinking about it makes me smile :)
You know what else makes me smile. Face to Face getting back together!!!

Certain good smelling guys make me smile too. Yay for smiling today.

a few pcitures I owed

So my house isn't finished renovations but I know I promised to put up pictures so here are a few, I still have tons of stuff to do but ya, here they are.

I'm a binary code that you cracked long ago

Thanks for sending the songs richard. You get me so hooked and lost in YOUTUBE land for hours.
I love how crazy Sia is. She's this cute crazy woman who makes the way I act seem normal. I love it. There's nothing wrong with being silly, allowing people to put post it notes on you to look like a lion in public or put random stickers on random stuffs that make people smile.

Honestly when I'm feeling my best is when I'm being silly or laughing with friends or those I love.(which is usually friends but I guess family and cute boys are included is what I'm saying) so ya. Freedom is truly in fun. I love being silly and goofy and not serious when I can. I have my seriousness in check though but as soon as the time calls I burst out in a million pieces of funshine and just have a blast.

team sleepy

I've had the best sleeps of my life lately ok well maybe not last night or the night before but the last week I sure have. That's saying alot coming from me.

happy happy joy joy

saw mike and his family and his beautiful wife Allison today!!!! I was so happy to see them again. I miss them all so much. I got to meet Hannah who was in her mommies tummy last time I saw them. It was great. I love them all so much. I went and saw 21 AGAIN and it made me dream of vegas once again. Inventory went well over the weekend which was also filled with fun and movies. I'm so happy right now. I can't tell you enough. It's been so good lately. Everything has just been falling into place perfectly. Things are good. I'm looking forward to things to come and people I'm going to meet. Everything happens for a reason. Change is hard but change is great.

the brave one

I seem to always, constantly, non stoppidly (is that a word? now it is) testing my strength. Today is no different. I'm mustering up all my strength and being brave and facing the world. I'm doing my best with what I'm given and I"m proud of who I am. I'm Me and no one can take that from me. So here I go, look out world here I come.

thankyou thankyou

I'm so happy Shane is back. I missed him so much. He's just one of those people who is consistant in my life no matter what mess we get in. I missed talking to him at 3am since we're the only two up. Anyways yay he's back in Canada!

Also I have to say that I've been really happy lately. I have become really close with my sister again and that means the world to me. Its hard to believe we just about murdered eachother growing up and now we're best friends. She's one of the greatest strengths in my life and my closest friend. I love her so much and I'm so blessed to be such a big part of her life and her kids lives. Makes me happy happy. She's always there for me and I know she knows I'm always here for her.

Last but not least I just wanted to thank all my friends for recently supporting me through my struggles, I won't get into details but they know what I'm talking about. Bosman, Jarrod and Lance, Boot, Dallas, Craig, Trish and Richard thanks for always holding me up when I can't stand on my own two feet. I'll be back on em in no time flat thanks to the lot of you gooders in my life.

yay my roommate is staying for longer!!! I'm craving apples and salad and work is stressy with inventory coming up.

sars bwains and blood

had a weird day today, it was a roller coaster day. Could be from the events around me as well as the hormones as well as the not being on meds. All I know is I got plenty of sleep before my appointment today just for the single reason of maybe having a rough go with it. But as the hitch hikers guide to the galaxy says (along with Richard today) DON'T PANIC! and so I breathed and went to a movie and tried to pull it together. And it worked out. But I'm still wide awake and hungry and thinking that I should make some dinner at 1:40am for some crazy reason.

My dad is going to come and help me move stuff around in the basement to upstairs and help me finish painting the kitchen so I can get this place finished up. I think my roommate is moving out soon so I should be thinking about that too but I just have too much to do right now. I'm gonna miss him if he moves. It was nice having someone here again even if we rarely saw eachother. I'm happy for him though. He's a gooder and deserves gooder things in his life. but yeah i'm really looking forward to getting the kitchen and bathroom done. :) I love my little house. It's been alot of work but it's been worth it.

I should get some sleep since I have another round of blood tests in the morning then ooooh lala work! Good thing I love both my jobs.

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