learning curve

i wish things could be easier but then i wouldn't be learning anything and i would stop growing which ultimately would become me not living anymore. i just hope things work out the way that i want to an extent and that i don't lose everything that means so much to me. i've learned so much from all of this. i appreciate my home, relationships, and job way more that i have ever before. although i still do not have any appreciation for laundry. ugh. i know i'm always going to be one of those people who has to learn life's lessons the hard way. i just hope that it's not too late.