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to happy hardcore talking to an old friend and thinking of my HJ. I took a neo citron that Dmaster brought over the last time i was sick and it's got me amped up. I read after i took it that it's daytime not night time so i'm wide awake now lol. got back from mexico about a week ago. it was frigging sweet. went parasailing and floating down a river, lots of shopping and napping on the sun deck and beach. got hit on by a balloon animal making clown and had a lot of fun with my family there. cant wait to go back there some day.  went to my staff xmas party with hj and it was awesome everyone thought he was amazing. i'm so lucky to have him in my life. i also ended up with a free wii that i'm gonna give to the boys and i have all my xmas gifts ready to go. i think i might actually enjoy xmas this year. lol we shall see.

If this is true, I thought then, what will I think
will I stay but rather I would get away
i'm scared that I won't find a thing
and afraid that I'll turn out to be alone, but I

I have to learn, have to try, have to trust I have to cry,
I have to see,have to know,
that I can be myself...

and if I could I would stay
and if they're not, not in my way
I'll stare here in the distance
but I'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
I'll grow up to be just like you.

I see it all I'm sure but
do I know what's right
I thought I knew but it turns out the other way
I am scared that I won't find a thing
and afraid that I'll turn out to be alone, but I

I have to learn, have to try, have to trust I have to cry
I have to see, have to know that I can be myself...

and if I could I would stay
and if they're not not in my way
I'll stare here in the distance
but I'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
I'll grow up to be just like you.

I want to tell you
why would I try to
you are all I can see now
why would I try to

and I want to tell you
why would I try to
you are all I can see now
I know I'll try to

I have to learn, have to try, have to trust I had to cry
I have to see, have to know that I can be myself...

but if I could,I would stay
and if they're not, not in my way
I'll stare here in the distance
but I'll grow up to be just like you, yeah
I'll grow up to be just like you,
like you.