wrapped in rainbows....

so yesterday one of my best friends sent me this video because it reminded him of me. I love this song. It reminded him of me because everytime this song would come on I would try not to cry because it totally makes me think of Abs. I rarely cry over her now. I think it's because I'm happy with myself these days and I'm super happy with having her in my life still. In honesty I have nothing to cry about it at all anymore. Everything is better then what I had imagined.

I know that it was the right thing and I know it's the best for both of us and I don't doubt that for a moment. But like most birth moms, (but not all) I can totally say without hesitation or sadness that I miss her, That I do wonder now and again what it would be like if she was here and things worked out that way. Then within 3 seconds I'm back to knowing this is the right choice, not only for her *my main concern* but for myself as well. Can't live in shoulda coulda woulda besides I know that this all happend for a reason and that I was meant to have and place her. I never thought I would love our relationship as much as I do and I never thought I would be as content with it as I am. :)

I love you with all my soul mini one. You're the rainbow in my heart that never stops shining.

also I'm starting a book club and we're reading catcher in the rye right now, so far it consists of two of us me and one which I bullied into making him buy the book to read it with me because he said it wasn't that big of a deal. So we call ourselves the

Bad Religion

Who else can talk about the CERN and finish a fight while rocking the good rock of punk rawk?

BAD RELIGION that's who.

Thanks mr. dallas. I had a great night with you last night. I'm sad to think our punk rawk excursions are coming to an end this weekend. :( But I know there will be more shows and more sleep (I'm getting old and actually have come to terms with the fact I need the stuff) to rest up for grand adventures.

ps you can't go to saskatoon to see BR without me ever!!! And again may I remind you this was number um.....15 this time :) still ahead but not by much.


In other news I'm super pissed I didn't think of this tat first but all I came up with was zombie marshmallows crawling up my foot to bite my ankles.

oh well Its still awesome. I love the blood especially.

Links to the past present and future

I love these ads that are going around for avg software. click me

They're so cute.

Also one more sleep till Bad Religion I'm so freaking pumped!!! Seriously, Face to Face, Rancid, Lagwagon, D.O.A., TaT, Creepshow, AKA's, Anti flag, and next week Reel Big Fish, Flatliners, and Less than Jake! I'm so freaking lucky. And get to hang out all those times with super rad folk like one of my best friends Dallas. Love it!

the other thing I love but have no link for is olive butter, ok well I just love the smell of my shaving lotion for my legs and it has olive butter in it so I'm not sure what makes it smell good but it sounds fun to say olive butter. lol Olive Butter....good night

Tis another post about things I love,

this add hugahacker.org

I heart Red Deer

So here's a more thought filled post. Hopefully you enjoy the pictures as much as I enjoyed taking them :)

<-----me with my super power Starbucks wrist band
to help me with my super mission so today was so gorgeous out I couldn't stay inside and do house work (yes I know that's what I should have done and should be doing since I basically have all my clothes on the floor.)

But I figured our journey for chi tea and Red Deer loving graffiti was more important (and more fun) The question that I broach to thee is : Should we embrace this graffiti as a form of self love for our deer city? It's never been on anything that is damaging, of historic buildings or churches. I like it personally. It's a positive message to our city.But I do see why It's frowned upon, since it is still graffiti and someone has to clean it up in the end. I just think people are scared of accepting a method of expression that they don't understand. I'm one of the first ones to hate "tagging" where a person just leaves their letters, but there's some amazing talented art out there and expression that is untapped because of peoples fear of graphic art that's not accepted. Now is this art? To some it is to some it's not. Who's to be the judge. The city, I guess has the final say. But to me I like it, especially since I've grown up in this city for most of my life. I do heart the Deer.

10 things I said about you .... or did I?

so I did this on my last blog and i'm gonna do it again, the 10 things I wanna say to 10 different people but haven't.....

1. your not my nemesis even though I still call you that
2. you really need to grow up for more then just yourself
3. I miss you everyday and think about you at least twice during each one.
4. You taught me to believe in myself and to follow my heart.
5. When I dream I dream in the colors we talked about, I dream of flying trucks and finding our secret hang out, you're not there as much but I still sit and wait for the first 4 mins which feel like days in dream time. But when you show up it's worth all the waiting.
6. marshmallows will never have the same meaning than kyou!
7. I would have gone with you and I lied when I said I didn't ever have any intention of it.
8. I still have the secret hidden note on my laptop you left. I wish you left more on there.
9. When you say my name my heart melts into mini globbed hearts that melt again.
10. I think you smell good.

So yesterday I went and saw some super rad bands, totally enjoyed the AKA's and Loved Creepshow and totally rocked it with Anti flag. And I've seen alot of great acts.

cuz you got me singing it and you know you are singing it too!

totally love this song right now thanks to a certain new member of the spice girls ;)

You're so Vain I bet you think this Post is about YOU

Today is one of those days where the pang of a lost love doesn't hurt the way it used to when you would see them or talk to them. You know that little ache that makes you hurt but at the same time it reminds you that you're still alive.

Had a dream about "u" the other night and it helped me get over all the hurt feelings I've been feeling since you left. I hope your doing great in your new home and your new life, I'm sure you're gonna get over 2008 like you did 1998.I'm sure "u" don't even read my blog but I wanted to get it down and out. *rubs her forehead with her index finger in the middle*

you're so vain I bet you think this post is about you

Today is one of those days where the pang of a lost loved doesn't hurt the way it used to when you would see them or talk to them. You know that little ache that makes you hurt but at the same time feel alive.