as the bouncing souls sing "here we go here we go here we go"!

 This is me at 238lbs March 6th 2025 I'll fluctuate between 220-248lbs for almost a year later. But on my birthday I did a huge thing. I got a gastric bypass for weight loss. I know some people think it's cheating to get surgery to lose weight and I know at one point in my weight loss journey I felt that way too. But after 5 years of working out, changing my eating completely and going to therapy I realized it might be the only answer I have. At 260lbs (my heaviest) I tried ozempic which worked great I got down to 198lbs but I couldn't afford to pay out of pocket for it being $250.00 a week, I was heart broken. I was pleased not to gain all the weight back but disappointed none the less. I worked with a trainer, I defied my surgeon who operated on my arm when I had flesh eating disease and did 5 push ups. I felt strong but my weight wasn't moving. I kept up with my healthy eating and cut booze out for the most part. I worked out 4 days a week minimum. Got another trainer when I lost touch of my other trainer. I keep getting stronger and hitting goals that aren't weight related but that effing scale won't move past 220lbs. So after a 5 year wait list I asked my doctor if we could put me on the Red Deer wait list for surgery. She was on board with me and told me not to expect to get picked up quickly and I was ok with that. But the next day Red Deer called and I started my journey to get surgery done. I went to classes, followed strict diets given by dieticians had therapy sessions with a psychologist and was followed by a dr and nurse for a year. Finally after a year of working on myself even further I  got my call that my surgery date was January 28th 2026. Best birthday present to myself I tell ya. So last Wednesday on my 47th birthday I went under and did a life changing thing. I'm so excited to see how this year is going to turn out. I'm doing this so I can have a long healthy life with my daughter who is 21 now and wants to go on hikes and loves camping as much as I do. I want to keep up with her. And here I go to do so......

Art Spot 100

 I'm heading to an art show where everything is under $100.00 I was hoping to enter it myself but I didn't have enough time to put together a large piece which was required. So this will be a next year goal for sure. https://www.under100artshow.com/ check it out! 

I moved my sewing studio into my second bedroom again and love it. I know having money coming in with a roommate would be ideal but I also love living on my own and having my own space. Especially with my sewing room. I can't wait to see what I create in 2025. It's going to be a good year I think. 2024 was pretty epic with moving into my dream apartment and going camping so often this summer and my wild trip to BC and back in a day. And hanging out with Dmaster again. I've done a lot of self discovery this year and am really putting my intentions in a direction that I'm striving for. I think 2025 will be the year I see it all come together. 

womp. womp.

Well it's Sept 3 and my store isn't up yet. I have trouble with the purchase part. Hopefully the kinks will get worked out soon. It's really frustrating but I guess this is what they call growing pains. 

Just about to head out to bass camp so I guess this is just going to have to wait. 

lacedwithk.com

 I'm actually doing it! I'm going to have lacedwithk.com up and running sept 1st and I can't wait! I mean yeah I can because I have so much to do before it's ready to launch but I'm excited to have my products out for others to buy and enjoy. I'll have 28 totes, 20 zippered pouches and about 10 key wristlets. Not a lot but it will be a good start. I started with a 7 dollar store but it isn't what I wanted so I bought the 50.00 one and I'll see if it works out or not. If it's not worth it then I can always go back to the 7 dollar one or maybe try selling on Amazon. I'd just like to keep it all home made including my selling and not use a big company like Amazon but that would also be pretty cool to sell my stuff there and make some bank. Any ways I just want people to love my creations as much as my creations love them. 

This Blog needs C level CPR

I keep trying to rejuvinate this blog and it seems it needs CPR. Oh man. It's like 4 am normal time for me to be awake right! (Don't you dare think that's a real question lol) Things have been so crazy yet totally still for the last little while. I'm struggling to force myself to go back to school. I'm topped out with the education I have in health care. Time to do something different. Unfortunately that means going back to school. I'm thinking OH&S not that I'm super interested in it. Maybe I need something I'm not super passionate about. Just go in--->do my best job----->go home and not think about work. Yet I'm still helping people. I've learned over the years not to bring work home but I still wonder about clients I've seen and how they are doing, hoping the best for them. I don't lose sleep over any of it but I do wonder. 

Time for a new chapter though...I need to grow and NOT MOVE but move in a direction that is up not linear. 

Other things...I moved to the north end of Edmonton which isn't a regular thing for folks moving up do. I really do love my area though. Ideally I'd have a barn style Carriage home with a studio in one of the Garage slots

I'd love to be there in the middle of no where but still have internets. Sew all day and love life. Who knows if I actually push my way into school and make more monies I could do this. 

Also I miss my all time lists at new years.....smarten the fuck up Agent EE and get blogging so we can make a a new one. 

Hey weird thing happened yesterday. I was walking in the lobby of my new place going home from work when I run into STU! Stu lived in my building with my neighbourisjacked in Leduc. They were room mates. Now we live in the same fancy pants building together again! Freaky Deeky! I love it. 

 Abby had A Bee!

I wanna talk about me myself and I

 Well the mini one is about to join the world of the tattoo'd tomorrow. I can't wait to see my girl JenDanger and experience with this with my mini one. She's frigging 19yrs old now! How is this possible?

I'll post photos tomorrow, I think I'm going to start blogging more again. It really helps me personally. I love being able to go back and read what had been going on. If no one reads this that's ok too. I just want to do this for me. 

This is still a thing

 My life’s got flipped turned upside down. 

I work at a drug treatment centre on night shift and I love working out. How crazy awesome is this? I’m so happy in my life right now I even have clean laundry hung up and folded say whaaaaaaat? I know this is life changing but I’m happy and so is zilly

 I really miss blogging. I miss getting all the ideas out of my head and thrown into the blogisphere. I'm not even sure what  to write anymore. Today was pretty rad. It's Wednesday night hype on twitch. I watch my favourite happy hardcore dj's on wed. Weaver, Kutski, Daghardcore and Dj2bhappy, seatlehardcore. It's great. Nifty got me lights to set up for the event. I love them. He came by this morning after giving me a ride to work and we hung out. He told me last time he doesn't want a relationship with me and that's cool. I just don't get why guys don't want a relationship with me. I'm fucking amazing and cool and hot and rad. But at the same time I don't think I want a relationship. I kinda like being on my own and doing what ever I want with whoever I want whenever I want. My life has been pretty simple lately. I go skiing with Nikkei and Stephen and work and rave in my living room for wed night hype. I like my little life though. It works for me. For the first time I feel like I have control over what's going on in my life and I'm not on a roller coaster. I think it helps I have quit drinking since Aug. Sounds cliche but life is fuller now. Full of good things and less mistakes. I still make mistakes but they aren't smh wtf mistakes. I don't have as many mood swings either which has been a blessing. I also get more done. I'm more productive. I do miss drinking now and again But as a whole, it's been a good thing. 

Missing You Dave

I still have no idea where you disappeared to but I was listening to the cheese files and Roxette and both made me think of you. I hope where ever you are you are happy.