47 is a rough goat

 It's been a month now since my surgery and I've had such a horrible time with healing. I ended up back in the hospital (Edmonton) because I can't keep even liquids down. Turns out the entrance to my small intestine is tightened by scar tissue built up around the stomach causing fluids to not pass quickly. I'm supposed to be on a solid diet now but I'm stuck still at a liquid diet. This is so frustrating. I'm constantly nauseous from the build up in my stomach not passing through to my lower intestine. I'm now off until the 11th and maybe longer if I have to have another surgery to fix this. I find out more answers this week. Sheesh this turning 47 hasn't been easy I tell ya. And because of the nausea I can't stop sweating. It's like menopause all over again. Yuck. I'll keep you up dated on how things go next week in Red Deer. Luckily I'm down 30lbs! So that's a win!

Painful Reminder

     This surgery was so painful. I don't think it's still supposed to hurt so much. I had to have a drain installed because they flubbed up and I bled into my stomach. Thus a drain had to be put in. It's the spot where the drain was that's so painful. I finally have enough time to catch up on things like my craft show items and cleaning of my bedroom (yes at 47 I still have clothes on my floor) but I hurt too much to do any of it. Here's to hoping I feel better tomorrow.

    But as for the song title I still love that song by SNFU check it out if you want PAINFUL REMINDER by SNFU Ken Chen aka Mr. Chi Pig looks so old in this video but that's him living and thriving on stage. He was such a grand performer. I loved all of his shows I went to. I even got a spy glass from one of the shows. And the last show I went to see the famous Mr. Chi Pig was out side asking people for spare change. No one had seen him for a while and he looked old and like he hadn't had a shower in a while along with missing teeth from his meth use. People shoved him off and ignored him. I asked him if he has puppets for this show and wigs. He knew I knew who he really was. And with that he pulled me out of the long line waiting for tickets at the door. Told everyone "shows sold out you fucking fuckers who needs any of you anyways" and away we went into the club to watch his amazing performances on stage. It was such a great night. 

as the bouncing souls sing "here we go here we go here we go"!

 This is me at 238lbs March 6th 2025 I'll fluctuate between 220-248lbs for almost a year later. But on my birthday I did a huge thing. I got a gastric bypass for weight loss. I know some people think it's cheating to get surgery to lose weight and I know at one point in my weight loss journey I felt that way too. But after 5 years of working out, changing my eating completely and going to therapy I realized it might be the only answer I have. At 260lbs (my heaviest) I tried ozempic which worked great I got down to 198lbs but I couldn't afford to pay out of pocket for it being $250.00 a week, I was heart broken. I was pleased not to gain all the weight back but disappointed none the less. I worked with a trainer, I defied my surgeon who operated on my arm when I had flesh eating disease and did 5 push ups. I felt strong but my weight wasn't moving. I kept up with my healthy eating and cut booze out for the most part. I worked out 4 days a week minimum. Got another trainer when I lost touch of my other trainer. I keep getting stronger and hitting goals that aren't weight related but that effing scale won't move past 220lbs. So after a 5 year wait list I asked my doctor if we could put me on the Red Deer wait list for surgery. She was on board with me and told me not to expect to get picked up quickly and I was ok with that. But the next day Red Deer called and I started my journey to get surgery done. I went to classes, followed strict diets given by dieticians had therapy sessions with a psychologist and was followed by a dr and nurse for a year. Finally after a year of working on myself even further I  got my call that my surgery date was January 28th 2026. Best birthday present to myself I tell ya. So last Wednesday on my 47th birthday I went under and did a life changing thing. I'm so excited to see how this year is going to turn out. I'm doing this so I can have a long healthy life with my daughter who is 21 now and wants to go on hikes and loves camping as much as I do. I want to keep up with her. And here I go to do so......

Art Spot 100

 I'm heading to an art show where everything is under $100.00 I was hoping to enter it myself but I didn't have enough time to put together a large piece which was required. So this will be a next year goal for sure. https://www.under100artshow.com/ check it out! 

I moved my sewing studio into my second bedroom again and love it. I know having money coming in with a roommate would be ideal but I also love living on my own and having my own space. Especially with my sewing room. I can't wait to see what I create in 2025. It's going to be a good year I think. 2024 was pretty epic with moving into my dream apartment and going camping so often this summer and my wild trip to BC and back in a day. And hanging out with Dmaster again. I've done a lot of self discovery this year and am really putting my intentions in a direction that I'm striving for. I think 2025 will be the year I see it all come together. 

womp. womp.

Well it's Sept 3 and my store isn't up yet. I have trouble with the purchase part. Hopefully the kinks will get worked out soon. It's really frustrating but I guess this is what they call growing pains. 

Just about to head out to bass camp so I guess this is just going to have to wait. 

lacedwithk.com

 I'm actually doing it! I'm going to have lacedwithk.com up and running sept 1st and I can't wait! I mean yeah I can because I have so much to do before it's ready to launch but I'm excited to have my products out for others to buy and enjoy. I'll have 28 totes, 20 zippered pouches and about 10 key wristlets. Not a lot but it will be a good start. I started with a 7 dollar store but it isn't what I wanted so I bought the 50.00 one and I'll see if it works out or not. If it's not worth it then I can always go back to the 7 dollar one or maybe try selling on Amazon. I'd just like to keep it all home made including my selling and not use a big company like Amazon but that would also be pretty cool to sell my stuff there and make some bank. Any ways I just want people to love my creations as much as my creations love them. 

This Blog needs C level CPR

I keep trying to rejuvinate this blog and it seems it needs CPR. Oh man. It's like 4 am normal time for me to be awake right! (Don't you dare think that's a real question lol) Things have been so crazy yet totally still for the last little while. I'm struggling to force myself to go back to school. I'm topped out with the education I have in health care. Time to do something different. Unfortunately that means going back to school. I'm thinking OH&S not that I'm super interested in it. Maybe I need something I'm not super passionate about. Just go in--->do my best job----->go home and not think about work. Yet I'm still helping people. I've learned over the years not to bring work home but I still wonder about clients I've seen and how they are doing, hoping the best for them. I don't lose sleep over any of it but I do wonder. 

Time for a new chapter though...I need to grow and NOT MOVE but move in a direction that is up not linear. 

Other things...I moved to the north end of Edmonton which isn't a regular thing for folks moving up do. I really do love my area though. Ideally I'd have a barn style Carriage home with a studio in one of the Garage slots

I'd love to be there in the middle of no where but still have internets. Sew all day and love life. Who knows if I actually push my way into school and make more monies I could do this. 

Also I miss my all time lists at new years.....smarten the fuck up Agent EE and get blogging so we can make a a new one. 

Hey weird thing happened yesterday. I was walking in the lobby of my new place going home from work when I run into STU! Stu lived in my building with my neighbourisjacked in Leduc. They were room mates. Now we live in the same fancy pants building together again! Freaky Deeky! I love it. 

 Abby had A Bee!

I wanna talk about me myself and I

 Well the mini one is about to join the world of the tattoo'd tomorrow. I can't wait to see my girl JenDanger and experience with this with my mini one. She's frigging 19yrs old now! How is this possible?

I'll post photos tomorrow, I think I'm going to start blogging more again. It really helps me personally. I love being able to go back and read what had been going on. If no one reads this that's ok too. I just want to do this for me. 

This is still a thing

 My life’s got flipped turned upside down. 

I work at a drug treatment centre on night shift and I love working out. How crazy awesome is this? I’m so happy in my life right now I even have clean laundry hung up and folded say whaaaaaaat? I know this is life changing but I’m happy and so is zilly