Painful Reminder

     This surgery was so painful. I don't think it's still supposed to hurt so much. I had to have a drain installed because they flubbed up and I bled into my stomach. Thus a drain had to be put in. It's the spot where the drain was that's so painful. I finally have enough time to catch up on things like my craft show items and cleaning of my bedroom (yes at 47 I still have clothes on my floor) but I hurt too much to do any of it. Here's to hoping I feel better tomorrow.

    But as for the song title I still love that song by SNFU check it out if you want PAINFUL REMINDER by SNFU Ken Chen aka Mr. Chi Pig looks so old in this video but that's him living and thriving on stage. He was such a grand performer. I loved all of his shows I went to. I even got a spy glass from one of the shows. And the last show I went to see the famous Mr. Chi Pig was out side asking people for spare change. No one had seen him for a while and he looked old and like he hadn't had a shower in a while along with missing teeth from his meth use. People shoved him off and ignored him. I asked him if he has puppets for this show and wigs. He knew I knew who he really was. And with that he pulled me out of the long line waiting for tickets at the door. Told everyone "shows sold out you fucking fuckers who needs any of you anyways" and away we went into the club to watch his amazing performances on stage. It was such a great night. 

as the bouncing souls sing "here we go here we go here we go"!

 This is me at 238lbs March 6th 2025 I'll fluctuate between 220-248lbs for almost a year later. But on my birthday I did a huge thing. I got a gastric bypass for weight loss. I know some people think it's cheating to get surgery to lose weight and I know at one point in my weight loss journey I felt that way too. But after 5 years of working out, changing my eating completely and going to therapy I realized it might be the only answer I have. At 260lbs (my heaviest) I tried ozempic which worked great I got down to 198lbs but I couldn't afford to pay out of pocket for it being $250.00 a week, I was heart broken. I was pleased not to gain all the weight back but disappointed none the less. I worked with a trainer, I defied my surgeon who operated on my arm when I had flesh eating disease and did 5 push ups. I felt strong but my weight wasn't moving. I kept up with my healthy eating and cut booze out for the most part. I worked out 4 days a week minimum. Got another trainer when I lost touch of my other trainer. I keep getting stronger and hitting goals that aren't weight related but that effing scale won't move past 220lbs. So after a 5 year wait list I asked my doctor if we could put me on the Red Deer wait list for surgery. She was on board with me and told me not to expect to get picked up quickly and I was ok with that. But the next day Red Deer called and I started my journey to get surgery done. I went to classes, followed strict diets given by dieticians had therapy sessions with a psychologist and was followed by a dr and nurse for a year. Finally after a year of working on myself even further I  got my call that my surgery date was January 28th 2026. Best birthday present to myself I tell ya. So last Wednesday on my 47th birthday I went under and did a life changing thing. I'm so excited to see how this year is going to turn out. I'm doing this so I can have a long healthy life with my daughter who is 21 now and wants to go on hikes and loves camping as much as I do. I want to keep up with her. And here I go to do so......